Its all different now

Well today I went through all of my clothes and got rid of a ton of what I didn't need...be proud of me...very proud. It wasn't easy, heh. Nah, I actually needed to do that anyways as I'm going to be moving soon and need to get my stuff down to suitcase size...watch me have extra room once I buy my suitcases. Ok so I did that, and went through my shoes, as well as packaged bananas and froze them, and moved all of Anjies stuff out of our room. Because we have other people moving into our room so that Anjie can have her own room with her offspring.
The other people that are moving into our room just happen to be the boys from downstairs. John, Mike and Aaron...no one told me about this change till this morning. Oh well...guess thats what I get for not having to go to meetings anymore. So we did all of that today, and we are hopefully going to put up a partition so that we girls can have some "privacy" or as much as we possibly can with a sheet hanging between us and the boys.
Things will change soon...so they say, but not before I leave. Things happen slowly around here, its good in some ways...bad in others but it becomes a habit, we must break it.
I'm not sure when I'll become used to coming into my room and having to scrounge around for privacy to change....oh wait...that already does happen cause the boys are in here so much already, so I guess it isn't that much of a change afterall.
I will survive!

(I was going to post pictures of the before and after changes...but I never got around to taking them, oh well. If you visit here anytime soon, you'll see for yourself.)

A Breath before a Scream

Don’t’ scream

Till its too late

And the feeling has dissipated

Don’t breath

Until you’ve screamed

And the echo is gone

Counting down the days

It almost seemed like I would be here forever.
It really felt like my time here would never come to an end, but all things do, someway or another, in time.
I feel...apprehensive, as to what this next chapter in my life holds. I could almost say I'm scared, but even then, that doesn't feel right. Perhaps I'm just in an emotional state, and they're all just jumbled emotions that I can't figure out.

I did it though, I turned my thirty days in.
"About time!", a million voices in my head shout, but theres always the one in the background that protests.
I was scared, frightened, and still am. Will probably be till I finally get where I am going, but it is done.
I cried.
It was sad, I tried not to, I tried to keep a straight face on, tried to hide the emotions churning inside me, but they all came bursting out and fell down my cheeks as liquid crystals. I didn't want to cry when I was going to hand it in...but I did.
I don't know what I'm doing.
But there's a first for everything right? A first for officially moving to another country. And a first for being scared out of your mind of what situation you will find yourself in in that other country.
I am insane.
I know, its crazy, I'm crazy, everything is crazy, and for what? I don't know, other than what the Lord has told me to do. I guess I'll just have to take it one step at a time, otherwise I'll just end up a complete mess.
I'm terrified.
But here I go...

Sisters, sisters...

My dearest sister and I, and now she's just another year older...wow, we grow up fast.

Sisters, sisters
There were never such devoted sisters,
Never had to have a chaperone, no sir,
I’m there to keep my eye on her
Caring, sharing
Every little thing that we are wearing
When a certain gentleman arrived from rome
She wore the dress, and I stayed home
All kinds of weather, we stick together
The same in the rain and sun
Two different faces, but in tight places
We think and we act as one
Those who’ve seen us
Know that not a thing could come between us
Many men have tried to split us up, but no one can
Lord help the mister who comes between me and my sister
And lord help the sister, who comes between me and my man
(By Irving Berlin, thanks man!)

21 and counting...

So she's one year older, one year wiser, and is now of legal age to drink!

How wonderful! Now she can buy me drinks! Muahaha

Happy birthday Boo!

You know I love you, and miss you terribly!
I hope you have a great one this year, party hard, and have a rockin time!



...I was going to upload a picture, but the thing is taking too long to upload.
Oh well, next time

Is my house too small? YES!!

You know your house must be too small when you find yourself sitting in a bathroom on your computer, so as to not bother the people in your room, or in the rest of the house. As the whole house is full of people, sleeping here or there. Or getting ready for their repose.

This is the position I find myself in, sitting in the bathroom, on a stool in front of the sink. If anyone came in right now, they'd think it was the funniest thing. Either that, or else I'm extremely addicted to my new computer and had to get my nightly fix. Which btw I'm not, but it might look that way to different people.

Now I must go before the door gets knocked on again, and I get asked what the hell that typing is?

His name shall be called Larry....

This is old news, but I thought I'd post it anyways, because I think its funny.

I have a stalker!

There, I've said it, now I will have the whole world* protecting me against you! Muahahaha! I feel powerful. (*when saying that, its not literal, just perhaps my family...not that I need protection from you anyways heh)

Not only has this stalker searched intensively on the Mo site for pictures of me, but also showed up right at the steps of the place I was ballooning at, Joe's Crab Shack. I was...shocked, completely speechless, I didn't know what to say (for once)...and he was in MY seat of the van.

Here I am, very mad that I am left late at a ballooning spot, and hoping to get home soon, as Ricky and Rosie were going to be letting me use their computer,because I wanted to talk to this stalker of mine, but Tim is late with picking me up. I called him, and what did he say? "Um...I'm going to have to do some business before I get you, just be patient I won't be long."

An hour later...he's not there, and I'm starting to begin to get past my annoyedness and get into my pissedoffness.
Aaron, who came to do some extra fundraising during that time, since I was supposed to be home about an hour before, comes up to me and says, "calm down Lani, its going to be all right, believe me your not going to be mad at Tim for long..."

If only I knew, I mean I should have caught it. But no...I didn't, I was so caught up in my pissedoffedness that I didn't catch that subtle hint at something good. I said to him "Oh no, your not going to hear the end of this, I'm not going to speak to him for days." Aaron just silently chuckled and shook his head, knowing what lay in store for me, and was amused because he knew how my emotions would change in a heartbeat towards Tim when I found out what his "business" was.

Finally, he shows up. I get my purse and grumble my way out to the car, not caring who caught my deathly gaze...when...to my horror....someone is sitting in MY seat, and I didn't recognize them. I stop, take a double take and noooo.....who else can it be but my very own "Stalker".

There he is, smiling all smug and happy that he caught me by surprise, and sitting in MY seat. I was completely speechless and hardly believed it. I couldn't understand how my home could have worked something out like this behind my back. Who would have known they were capable of something like this? I never did suspect, even though everyone thought I did, and was just playing along. Boy did I have them fooled.

April Fools at Joes

I made a turtle bracelet for a round server at Joe's today, she immediately named it "Billy" and started talking to it, cuddling it, cooing to it and the like. I didn't know what to do except smile and nod my head. It was quite an interesting situation. I mean I thought that she was some kind of normal until she started doing that. And the funny thing was...was I only saw her doing it whenever she was walking right past me. Muttering things like "Let's go Billy!" with enthusiasum. I was amused to say the least.

I was afriad to order food at Joes today, because it was April fools and I wasn't sure what they would do to my food. My stomach started growling really loudly around 3pm and it was too hot outside to walk all the way down to MickyDee's or some other fast food restaurant, so I decided to take the risk. It wasn't as bad as I thought actually, because they did nothing to it...that I know of at least.

Anyways, I didn't see very many pranks pulled on anyone today, except one of the servers asking one of the hostess's to look for some cottage cheese in the fridge that they didn't have. She didn't even know what cottage cheese was...so I told her it looked like lumpy yoghurt. She spent 15 minutes looking for it, until she realized they didn't even have it. Wasn't that funny...but anyways. That was the only thing I recall that was a prank.
So that was my day, as much as I can recall after a long day of latex and screaming children.

(Use latex! It prevents the cause of screaming children!!)