Christmas gift to My love

Dear My love,

What can I give you this year that I haven’t given you before? For, I have given you everything within me, my heart, my life, my spirit, my very being; all of these things are yours. What do I have left to give you? I’ve dedicated everything I am to you, and I want to serve you with everything within me.

I could say I will give you this year, but that promise could be broken or forgotten. I could say that I will give you my time, but I know I would often forget that I have given you that and will use it to my own pleasure or want. I could give you my love, but you already possess that to the full. I have searched my whole being for something that I can give you, but I haven’t found a thing that hasn’t been given you to already.

So, this may not seem big in comparison to the other gifts that I have given you, but it is given to you from my heart.

I will give you tomorrow; I will dedicate tomorrow to you, and live tomorrow for you and with you, because you live in me. And when tomorrow ends, I will say the same for the next day, and the next, so that way I am not giving you anything that I know I will forget about, and that I’m just giving you one day at a time. That I hope will mean more to you than if I gave you the whole year ahead of time, than if I gave you my whole life over and over again. Just one day at a time I will dedicate my life to you, one little step at a time I will walk with you.

Just promise me that you will help me, that you will hold my hand when I’m too weak to walk, that you will encourage me when I am fallen and discouraged, that you will help me to be everything that I should be, everyday that I’ve committed to you.

Thank you so much for being my awesome lover and friend, my confidant, my king, my father, thank you for being everything to me.

Much love from your lowly servant and lover

Leilani

Yuletide season...where is your cheer?

What I miss this Christmas.

1. Singing practice for caroling with all the people in the South Houston home

2. Everyones foolishness when we were practicing

3. Caroling

4. The jokes and fun we had while caroling

5. Spiked egg nog

6. The old c'mas movies we would watch, like White Christmas

7. Being with my family and friends

8. Livi's cooking

9. Secret Santa

10. A house with internal heating

I have so many memories with you guys in that home, and I miss you all terribly this Christmas season. I hope you guys have the greatest time, and most wonderful Christmas yet!

This, sadly is the first Christmas I'm spending away from any of my family, and also the first Christmas where I'm not part of any singing/caroling team, so I'm feeling very sad and lonely.
Christmas is supposed to be a happy time, an exciting time, a time where your trying to figure out for the whole season who your Secret Santa might be, and what they got you. A time which you spend with your family and close friends. But sadly it doesn't seem to be any of those things for me this year.
No presents wrapped under the tree with my name scrawled on them, no family or close friends to spend it with that are in the home, no caroling and revelry. But I suppose all things change as we grow older.
All that to say, I miss my family, I miss my friends, and I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas!
As for me, I'm going to get myself a nice bottle of rum, and find a state of complete euphoria to snuggle into this Christmas day.

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A BOTTLE OF RUM!

P.S.
Here are a few pictures I just came across that might brighten up your Christmas day as well

and here is another pic that I couldn't upload, but I thought was funny, in a weird little way.