Tuesday, April 28

My Timewaster of the Day

1. Where is your cell phone? on my bed
2. Your significant other? at work
3. Your hair? brunette
4. Your favorite thing? good news, or good food, or a relaxing evening watching my favorite tv shows
5. Your dream last night? about the class i was giving this morning
6. Your favorite drink? savignon blanc
7. Your dream/goal? happiness, to be a successful artist/photographer, someone to share it with
8. What room you are in? my room
9. Your hobby? photography, drawing, painting
10. Your fear? being taken advantage of, going broke, being vulnerable
11. Where do you want to be in 6 years? where i am now, with my bf, a place of my own, hopefully with a car and a much better job.
12. Where were you last night? at home
13. Muffins? on occasion at starbucks
14. Wish list item? shoes, 70-250mm or 70-300mm lense, clothes
15. Where you grew up? US and A
16. Last thing you did? ate a bowl of cereal
17. What are you wearing? Jeans and a Zara shirt
18. Your TV? off
19. Your pets? dead or gone
20. Friends? wonderful
21. Your life? with its ups and downs
22. Your mood? deliriously happy, though a bit reticent with the thought of packing
23. Missing some one? yes, my family, my bf, my friends
24. Car? none at the moment
25. Something you're not wearing? shoes
26. Your favorite store? Umbrale, Zara, United Colors of Benetton, Armani, Mor, etc
27. Your favorite color? turquoise
28. When is the last time you laughed? this morning
29. Last time you cried? last saturday
30. Who will resend this? no one i know
31. One place that I go to over and over? starbucks
32. One person who emails me regularly? mmm who e-mails anymore?
33. Favorite place to eat? when? peruvian restaurants, thai, mexican, italian, etc, and as often as possible
34. Why you participated in this survey? it kept me from starting to pack
35. What are you doing tonight? sleeping as much as possible!!

Monday, April 27

Let me rejoice!

So celebrations have been made, and are finished. I signed the contract for my new apartment!!
No more stressing, no more worrying, no more fretting!
I'm just so happy!
This is the first place I can really call my own....even though I still do have a few restrictions from my very sweet old landowners downstairs from me.
Such as....no parties, and no loud music, which is no problem for me, as long as they don't stick their nose in my business.
In other news, next week I'm pretty much starting a full schedule with teaching, happy about that, and kind of reticent as well. Hoping that I will remember where all my classes are as well as be able to prepare for them all.
I'm getting up at 6am tomorrow....pray for me! Not a morning person, but it is what we people must do to make a living.

Friday, April 24

dirty dishware

I had dreams of plastic dishware last night....dirty plastic dishware, full of germs.
And sharing an apartment with 2 dirty people, with my bed in the livingroom with no privacy, whatsoever.
It freaked me out.
Must be pre moving cold feet.
Must overcome!

Wednesday, April 22

80 Things to Experience Before You Die

Its not like I want to try all of them, there's a few on this list that make me cringe, but I thought I'd at least put all the ones I have already done in red.

-Swam with wild dolphins
-Been inside the Great Pyramid
-Held a tarantula
-Bought everyone in the bar a drink
-Taken a candlelit bath with someone
-Said “I love you” and meant it
-Bungee jumped
-Visited Paris
-Watched a lightning storm at sea
-Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
-Seen the Northern Lights
-Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
-Grown and eaten your own vegetables
-Touched an iceberg
-Slept under the stars
-Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
-Watched a meteor shower
-Gotten drunk on champagne
-Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
-Had a food fight
-Bet on a winning horse
-Asked out a stranger
-Had a snowball fight
-Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
-Held a lamb
-Seen a total eclipse
-Ridden a roller coaster
-Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
-Adopted an accent for an entire day
-Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
-Visited all 50 states
-Taken care of someone who was drunk
-Had amazing friends
-Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
-Watched wild whales
-Backpacked in Europe
-Taken a road-trip
-Gone rock climbing
-Midnight walk on the beach
-Gone sky diving
-Visited Ireland
-Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
-In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
-Visited India
-Sung karaoke
-Lounged around in bed all day
-Gone scuba diving
-Kissed in the rain
-Played in the mud
-Gone to a drive-in theater
-Visited the Great Wall of China
-Started a business
-Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
-Toured ancient sites
-Taken a martial arts class
-Gotten married
-Been in a movie
-Crashed a party
-Gone without food for 5 days
-Made cookies from scratch
-Performed on stage
-Eaten shark
-Gone to Thailand
-Been in a combat zone
-Raised children
-Picked up and moved to another country or city to just start over
-Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
-Held someone while they were having a flashback
-Helped an animal give birth
-Gone on an African photo safari
-Ridden a horse
-Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
-Visited all 7 continents
-Eaten sushi
-Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
-Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
-Dyed your hair
-Shaved your head
-Helped save someone’s life

Tuesday, April 21

My Wall of Shame

I figured if I'm going to do a wall of shame I might as well make it public so I will feel so ashamed that I will do something about it.
Not in any particular order, just what comes to mind first.

I'm terribly disorganized, I will try to organize myself, but then it will just be a mess a few days later.

I'm very bad with money. I never know where it goes, and I don't even spend it on things I really want. It just disappears here and there.

I can't make the most of my own time, because I always forget what it was that I needed to do and only remember it again when I'm missing it or its the last moment.

I pick my nails, I used to bite them, but now that I actually have long nails, I pick them. All. The. Time. Just because I hate seeing dirt under them.

I don't exercise. I know I should, but actually getting up off my lazy butt and doing it is the hardest thing for me to do.

I am horrible at dieting, I'm good for half the day, then when dinner comes around I always pick on the food I'm not supposed to be eating.

I always trip off on television series when I have much better things to be doing. Or even when I could be making the most of a beautiful day or working on my art. I'm addicted to television series!

I never buy good practical shoes. And even when I do, I wear them out so fast there wasn't even a use to buying them.

I don't take care of my good shoes, usually the soles go first. I kill the soles of my shoes!!

I never take off my make up. Yes, its bad, I know. (hopefully the new face wash I bought today will help me with that.)

I'm addicted to Mafia Wars on Facebook. Its such a timewaster, but I can't help it.

I'll read articles on health, but won't ever really do anything about my own health. Its almost as if the thought of doing it is good enough for me.

I spend too much time on my computer.

I don't clean my room as much as I should.

I think that about sums up my worst habits. I don't need to humiliate myself any further. You've all got bad habits too. So don't be quick to judge. If you have any really useful tips to help me with some of these. I'd love to hear them.

Monday, December 29

What really counts

I've been thinking recently about friends, and how important they really are.
Sadly, I've somehow lost contact with them recently, even some of the ones that live on this continent....well in the same country really.
I've put other things as priority, I've disappeared from the routine of life that I had a while ago, and I've changed.
Perhaps not even in a good way, I'm still reassessing that at the moment.
I've got a lot to be thankful for, but if I don't nurture the friendships I have...then I have nothing, and no one to share all the gratitute I have.
So perhaps this is a post to say I'm sorry...that I still think about all of you who are so far away, even though the communication is about nil...and to those who are on the same continent,well, that I'm sorry I've put other things priority and taken for granted what is really important.
I just want all of you to know, that, you've been there for me when times are tough, and I'm very thankful for that.
I just hope you know you can count on me when times are tough for you as well.
Things have been a bit complicated for me recently, I've mixed up what really counts and closed people off, but I'm trying to change that now.
First steps are always the hardest to take, but I'm going to do better this time.

Sunday, September 7

Pic of 21st Party


Just one, and there were a few more people there than just 4... there were 8 people there to be exact, but heres a picture at least.

Saturday, September 6

21!! Woo Hoo

I am officially 21....as of 3 1/2 days ago more or less.
It feels goooood, oh yes it does.
Last nights party was a BLAST, met up with a bunch of friends at the Irish pub I was talking about in one of my earlier posts, and drank tons of beer from Denmark, which was absolutely delicious.
We grooved to Stefans band that was playing and I tried to croak out the lyrics when I knew the songs that they sang. Unfortunately, we just so happened to get a table right in front of the speakers...and I mean RIGHT in front of them. So sadly, we could not hear ourselves talk, much less think, but I still had a wonderful time. And hopefully my friends did as well.
After the pub we headed off to a Salsa Bravo, and danced our shoes right off. I had a great time, they had a contest where they called up all the birthday people...myself included, and you had to dance by yourself, and whoever got the most cheers would win. I ended up being one of the last 3, but didn't win. But I did win myself a beer, I was happy.
This morning though, I woke up with quite the headache, pay for having drunk on an empty stomach the night before, and not drinking enough water, I suppose. Also, the neighbors decided to choose this lovely day to start drilling holes in the walls. ooooh I was not happy.
Now tonight, I'm off to see a play, don't know what its about, or anything, but figure it might be fun.
Well I do wish a lot of my friends from the states could have been here for my b'day bash last night as well, I miss you guys a lot and I'm sorry for not keeping up such good communication with you!

Tuesday, August 5

New News

So I've finally moved houses, and it is (as Jim Carrey would say) B-E-A-UTIFUL!
I've got my own spacious room, with a big closet, and I'm planning on getting a good sized bed as well. So excited!
I've been sooo busy with work recently, never have time to update. Plus no computer. At the moment I'm using a friends comp at the institute that they work at...wonderful. Though sadly I'm not going to be coming out this way much longer as my classes that I have over here, are going to be ending in a week.
So whats up with me? A lot....besides moving though...not much. Just working and sleeping and eating. Sounds like a boring routine doesn't it? It does get a bit monotonous, but since I travel through the city a lot it kinda keeps me on my toes as I can't forget where I have to go next, or what office I have to be at. It also is teaching me a lot about time-management.
OOOOHHHH I have plans for my birthday already. I'm so happy!! I've decided that I want everyone to meet up at this pub I found, an Irish one. I went there today to check it out, and fell instantly in love with the place! I have, have, HAVE to go there for my birthday!
I decided to go to a pub this year, as that's what I would do if I was in the States, turning 21 and all....definitely a momentous occasion. Though here it doesn't really matter as the drinking age is 18, but still, I'm American, not really THAT proud of it, but gotta celebrate at every moment that I get.
Well thats all for now at the moment.
Love all of you who read this blog, and no, I haven't forgotten about you.

Monday, July 28

Oh what I would do...

A book! A book! My kingdom for a massive box of English books!!!
Recently, I've been missing the joy of reading books in English, and sadly, I don't have any books to read in English here, they are almost impossible to find, and if you do find them, they will cost you an arm and a leg to get....and since arms and legs don't exactly grow on trees then I have to be content with just the thoughts of having books in English, which isn't exactly as satisfying.

If anyone reads this, and has it in their little heart to send me books, then reply, I'll send you an address in the states where you can send them, so they will be brought down to me.

Tuesday, July 22

An open book...I've got no secrets

Well my sister did it, and I found out a few things about her that I didn't know previously....seriously. So I decided to do the same, and perhaps you might find something out about me you didn't know before.

Have you ever...


Sung someone to sleep?
Yup, used to take care of these kids, and the easiest way to get them to fall asleep was to sing soft songs to them.

Baked a cake without a recipe?
um.....don't think I'd ever want to try it, my cakes baked 'with' a recipe barely even come out.


Recorded your voice?
I'll admit yes, I did. On a tape recorder once, on an mp3 player, and then finally in an actual studio

Written a novel?
Started and never finished any of the stories I tried writing, they were all crap.

Lost a loved-one?
Yes

Been in a band?
Nope...always wanted to be in one or start up my own thing though. did sing at two wordstocks, the same ones my sister did, she only sang at them because I convinced her to, we sang together 'The B'Smith Sisters'

Wanted children?
Once...but only because I was with someone I loved

Cried yourself to sleep?
eck....yes....

Met someone famous?
don't think so, but then again, how do you define famous? dang, I guess since I had to ask they weren't famous afterall

Wanted to be famous?
one can dream, can't they?

Used a rhyming dictionary?
nope, don't think I ever did

Drew/painted a piece of art to completion?
yes, a few pieces

Streaked?
In my wild days

Gone somewhere deliberately in the hopes of running into someone?
um...isn't that borderline stalking?

Felt so incapable of expressing love that you cried?
well if that would make me seem to be like a blubbering fool...then no....but if not, then yes, at times I have felt quite incapable

Written a song?
what exactly would constitute as a song? silly ditty's running through my head? or actually having written something down on paper and put a melody to it as well as music? darnit...I've done both

Climbed a mountain?
yuppers, i have

Wished you were the opposite gender?
heh...just for a day, to see what it would be like

Been heartbroken?
its better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.....(bullshit)

Been in love with someone who had no idea?
don't think so


Do you...


Stop reading books halfway through? yes, usually because I never have the time to finish them...or they're an e-book and I can't ever get to the computer to read it...

Cry during movies?
no, not often at all

Talk a lot?
probably

Do you try to talk less?
I think its evened out pretty well with the times that I don't talk

Sleep better alone?
no, I prefer to sleep with someone, or something, its more comforting, i usually stack my pillows around me to make it more cozy

Pinch pennies? I don't think I'm so good at that...

Quickly lose interest in projects? are you kidding? all the time...fortunately I'm dedicated enough at times to try to finish it the best I can...other times...you can forget it

Misplace things?
oh god, I feel like I'm getting so old, there was a day when I would get annoyed at how other people would do that all the time, because I never did...now...I feel so bad for ever doing that

Love math? like 1+1=2? sure, thats fine, but any algebra or geometry, you can just forget it....i'm a wonderful finance person, as long as they aren't my finances


Do romantic, thoughtful things for the people you love? I'd have to go with what my sister said on this one and say I'm selfish

Have difficulty getting rid of things you don't use?
all the time, how did I become such a packrat? its horrible

Notice and remember little things about people?
occasionally...depending on what people, and interesting they are

Prefer wine to beer?
sometimes, but wine and beer are pretty much my favorite alcoholic beverages

Do an accent?
hehe....yes...I sometimes imitate accents in my classes

Enjoy the spotlight?
shhh....don't tell

Love board games?
same as my sis 'Only when I'm playing with good company.' which isn't all that often sadly

Wish people would stop talking about you?
if its bad then yes, but if its good, then they can talk all they want

Enjoy exotic foods?
i don't think so, unless calmari counts...which i doubt as 'exotic' foods are more like monkey brains and fish eggs

Cook elaborately for yourself?
oh yeh....when i have the ingredients + time + an empty house so no one else asks for any.....which actually never happens....so no, I don't cook elaborately for myself

Have expensive taste? Oh god yes, I'm 'in love' with this store in the mall....but its waaaaay out of my price range

Write on yourself? not so much anymore

Wish you could be someplace else? sometimes

Miss people? DEFINITELY! all the time

Organize to a fault? organize? organized? me? HA! only when i'm in the mood and have time, but that hardly ever happens, and when it does, it turns into a wreck the next day anyhow, so whats the point?

Wear clothes that are too big for you?
all...the...time. I went through a drop in weight recently and none of my clothes fit me, i'm stuck with having to pin my pants and wear belts, soon i'll take them to the taylors to get them fixed...or soon i'll buy new clothes...whichever

Wear make-up every day?
yeh...pretty much, i work basically everday

Saturday, June 28

New Haircut

So I got a new haircut a little while ago. These aren't the nicest pictures of it, but I figured a few recent pictures would satiate everyones curiosity as to whether I'm still alive or not.
Don't worry...I am.

Wednesday, May 28

Goodbye My Almost Lover

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget these images
No...
Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I'll bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk
Right in and out of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

~Artist A Fine Frenzy



Breathe Me


Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no one else to blame
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
And needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found
Yeah, I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
And needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
And needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

~Artist Sia




Saturday, May 10

Mothers

Remember when you're kids would do this....

And then all the excuses through the years...


Also all those little things that just seemed perfect to you on your special day...though they were pure luck for us...

And then lastly it comes to this...

It hasn't yet happened yet for some, but Mother, I want you to know, that I hope you still feel like a MOM even though none of your children are near to care for.

I love you!!!

Have a Happy Mothers Day!!

Tuesday, March 4

Euphoria!! I've found it!

I woke up this morning, in such a great mood, as today is the day which we get to move into our new house, or else at least finish the paperwork for it.
But then, my happiness was smashed when I heard that there was no good news to be heard, how sad I felt, I broke down and cried, I took a long walk to our apartment afterwards just to get some fresh air and sunshine, to make myself feel better, and it did help.
I was praying the whole way, that things would miraculously work out for good, and when I got here there was still no news but I felt better.
About 10 minutes pass and Pablo comes home, with such wonderful news!!
WE GOT THE HOUSE!!!
YES!!!
I'm happy again.
'Euphoria came and went, and with it, it has left a path of sadness, as I was happy, and now I´m sad once again.'
I wrote that this morning, but now I feel euphoria once again!!!

Thursday, February 28

the post with pictures

as promised




















Wednesday, February 27

no pictures yet this time

I had a wonderful time last night, just taking pictures of this mini fashion walk.
I believe the 'official' photographer didn't really know what to do when I and my friend were around shooting pictures, he gave us dirty looks at first and kept glancing over to get an idea of what we were doing with our dlsr's, but warmed up after a bit and started smiling back whenever I'd smile over at him, and even started dancing around to the music they had on, fun fun.
Made some new friends with a foreign student and a Ukrainian girl, very nice people, and it was fun to have new faces around to talk to.
I haven't uploaded any pictures yet, as usual, but this time I really promise that I will post some on this blog, I know I haven't kept any of my other promises, but I'll try, I really will.
We went to a restaurant afterwards, and enjoyed a nice cold beer and some fries, went there with our new friend Fabio, the name totally didn't suit him at all, and he looked like the mac guy from the Mac commercials, awesome time talking to him, perhaps will hang out in the future.
We're packing all our stuff today, and will be moving to our new house, so I probably won't be able to post the pictures anytime soon, as we probably won't have internet for a while, but I still will try, perhaps go to an internet cafe or something.
Well, it was nice of you to stop by, please do so again in the future for an update with actual pictures...I promise, it will only be pictures, no comments or anything.

Friday, February 22

New Art

I have two pieces of artwork that I finished. Both of which I've been working on for quite a while. Well...one of them I had been working on for quite a while, the other, I did a rough sketch and never went back to it until yesterday.
Anyhow, here they are for your viewing pleasure

Free Yourself
Free yourself from the ties of the world
Desire to embrace the wind
Let go of all that you've known
To gain that eternal peace within
Repression
-
Self Portrait

Wednesday, February 20

CashBack

I just saw it, it was a cute movie
Makes me wish I could stop time as well though
His art is soooo awesome, jealousy man
such jealousy